Ah, me.

What I don't understand whilst understanding the hypocrisy in it fully, is that I have concrete proof that someone is only right to society when they are doing things in society's way and any "mistake" can not be inexcused. One is judged when one doesn't fit and sometimes one can NOT fit. Not even allowed to look at objects anymore, just get a gun and kill the outcasts, instead of slow torture.

This is a world full of bullies.

Sometimes I feel like walking to a very quiet place and just wondering what it would be like to not exist anymore.

Because what am I existing in? We have to sometimes make up our own worlds, so that keeps the rest at a distance.

Perfection, perfection, perfection, perfection, faces painted white from the centuries way back and now brown.

Well done, we really have evolved.

This weekend I'm going to watch Mermaids with Winona Ryder and Cher and have some nice walks. It's not that cool outside actually. I'll also be thinking about movie weekend and speaking to a few people, friends of mine.

*big sigh* And I'll be blogging about the movie My Best Friends Keeper. Have a peaceful weekend.

Religion is no answer, movies are just magic, life is hard and there is nothing keeping anyone on here, instead one should have a need simply to be here. Say what you want but political correctness and over the top enthusiasm again done in society's way is the bullshit that stops expression.

When A Man Loves A Woman.

The poster may look like a lovey dovey Autumn movie, all cosy and sweet but the movie is about something that is anything but. What I love is the blend of both the characters love in the movie that leads to what some say a sappy ending but for me it's the way they are, especially when you watch the beginning of the movie and in the end, what's great is that the ending combines confronting their issues and imperfections as well as a little play and romance. To me When A Man Loves A Woman is probably the most romantic movie I have seen because it's about a love that lasts. The performances however make the movie. I can't get over how good the young girl who played the daughter was, her face especially in that horrible scene where Meg's character slaps her and her voice just killed me. I just love the actors and director.

So the movie is about confronting and coping with alcoholism. What happens to a family and a love when a person is an alcoholic. I don't care that it's a woman or a man who's an alcoholic, it doesn't make it more romantic that the man unconditionally loves the woman despite her addiction because unconditional love should be the only basis for a marriage anyway, why I love the movie is just the way both these characters deal with this and don't deal in some instances.

Of course you can't beat the song that starts the movie. Funny how it's about a man's love for a woman blindsiding him, yet it's such a popular romantic song. But it fits the movie, the way that Andy Garcia's character has to let go of the blindsidedness and see all sides of his wife, not only love his wife but see her all sides.

Boy I make love sound tough!

I haven't seen the movie for years so I can't remember the character's names.

I clicked on the links marked part one, two, etc..

http://www.alluc.org/movies/watch-when-a-man-loves-a-woman-1994-online/25187.html?maincatid=25187|


Only click on this particular link below if you have seen this movie as it has spoilers and possibly the ending! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JZOuM2IIfLs Oops it contains music. Well the first bit of this link I like since it's part of the movie.

Dear Daily Mail

(a letter I will be submitting)

Thank you for telling me that Kelly Osbourne has been voted one of the most beautiful people in the world by People magazine. I know you put your stories in there for a reason and mostly I see the reason as ghastly comments from your readers. In this case, the readers have been so constantly nasty I will never, ever visit your website or pick up your paper. I know this won't come as a shocking loss to you because there are so many viscious people out there who will comment on your website again and again.

I would probably die from social phobia if your publication was the only access I had to the world outside, it's not just the comments that appear on the articles, it's the sensationlist articles you print and your own superifical statements within them. I would quote examples but I quite frankly block out negativity which is cold and useless like I have seen on DM. It's neither entertaining, never mind original I don't think I've even raised a part of my lip when I read your articles. I like to go on there mostly to get ideas and I do like news that Kelly has been voted one of the most beautiful people. I think that celebrates the fact you don't have to be 6 ft tall, with breasts pointing out, spend ages on volumising or extensioning hair and have a cosmetic enhanced glow or tan, to me it's People recogonising Kelly's beautiful skin and lovely wide set and bowed lips not to mention her eyes, her short and shapely body like a natural woman's and not someone who had lipo or has ribs showing through their skin.

I was disgusted by the comments left on that article. It went beyond school boy taunts, it was mean and cold. I think it's passive aggressive and I think people ought to grow out of that when they leave their teenaged years behind. I can see that your publication is for the mean and cold and narrowminded so I'll say farewell. I can get my ideas elsewhere and try something new. There was no one to say that whilst Kelly moved in her own way, not perfecting each society called flaw, but getting on with her life and dealing with her problems, she of course like any human being who hasn't shunned the world and become bitter, was happy to hear the news of People acknowledging her beauty. Oh yes, of course she's a celebrity and she's been on a show and she has things to sell and it's publicity but to have such a poll and to have a normal and beautiful woman included in that, I think is good news.

I know your website submits only some comments but I see mostly nasty ones.

Inspired.

The other day I was looking at some of those edgy lace up sandal shoes thing whatevers that are all the rage. I bought some. But they just don't look that pretty compared to the more traditional peep toe type sandals which I love. My point, know what you like and ignore fashion.

I am really very inspired by Dita Von Teese's look. I hate that none of my old skirts fit to me the extent getting them altered would be more expensive than just buying one or two. I wish I had the budget to afford more clothes like Von Teese's. I love her look. It's a little mumsy to those used to seeing edgy and the constant focus on looking younger but to me she looks soft and pretty.

Also having jet black hair myself and seeing the focus on lighter hair most of the time, is another reason I like Von Teese. She's shaped her hair fantastically and it doesn't look forced, there's a bit of the school marm about it but that only fuels my fantasies of being such a lady..

I'm also going to write a short story later on which I have been inspired to write after reading Sweet Caroline. That book did not disappoint. For months I have been waiting for this and when I read it, I could see on how similar a wavelength Buck and Caroline were on. Everything in that book was so natural and I knew the author Lissa Matthews would create something like this because she does write incredibly naturally as well as having that raw sex and sensuality to her books, and this one just totally confirmed all this. My, I love Buck and Caroline.

I hope that I get my dvd of The Exploding Girl soon. It looks dreamy, I think it's perfect for the mood sunny days can put one in. You know, I'm really grateful for this FLIPPING GREAT weather we've been having.

Ah me.

A remnant of moi lurking on the net still

http://www.myspace.com/goodnightandgoodlucku

I thought I deleted this account?! I have my blog posts still visible. Am going to have to listen to that music, I remember my Scent Of A Woman Tango obesession. The only reason I started belly dancing (well I use that term loosely but it did get me fit) was because I didn't have a partner to tango with at the time.

Oh gosh, random bit, this woman just started straight at me today and when i stared back, she continued to look me straight into the eyes as she was walking along with I assume her husband, her pathetic feet ahead, her face ON me. She looked around 50. I had to stop and check I didn't have biro on my face. What is wrong with some people? Just two seconds before I actually got a smile of this nice young woman who like me was just walking along checking out the shops. I really think that woman was a bitch. Moving on, but just thought I'd share. I'd rather do that than pretend everything is okay, it's not, I'm human, I have feelings, I just don't want my life to be in ruins, cracks are there as it is, just trying to protect myself.

Anyway, I'm looking forward to the release of Sweet Caroline by Lissa Matthews tomorrow. You know there's more humanity in those character's little fingers than I see out there. So what should I do, burn myself, my face?!

http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=416670830&blogId=461893442

LOL I am truly well and over my days of little crushes. They were so little too, I suppose it's thr thoughts that make them bigger. I'm just so glad I've moved on in my life, I see things how they really are truly. I don't think they are good things but they exist. I Can See Clearly Now The RAIN Has Gone.

MOVIE WEEKEND!

Foink me folks, I haven't forgotten!

I set this crappy diem movie weekend up on Fb, and since that's gone (gosh I wish drawing attention to myself in the status updates, I really do), we'll just do it here. It's this weekend, starts this Friday, finishes Bank Holiday Monday. You just do something movie related and tell me about it. It WAS for movies from a certain year, probably 1992, but I've decided we can extend that to any year you want. It's a celebration of movies and MADNESS. Your own madness, if singing and dancing to My Sharona in a newsagents gets the police called, you've won. I'm joking but I want something similar crazy. I'm going to do "BENJAMIN!!!" from the Graduate. From my balcony or maybe elswhere..I'll let you know! But if you think I am MERELY going to shout it and that's it, NO, then I have no right to blog about my movie weekend action because it's pathetic, I'M GOING FURTHER. SO ARE YOU! Tell me about what you did people!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hSyFNvdp-Rs

Some kind of movie mania

Funny but the sunshine only makes me want to see movies more,

I have a HUNGER for them right now. I MUST see the following. This isn't just a crappy girly list, this is do or die. I'm serious jerks.

(Joke).

1. Strictly Ballroom. This is the only Baz Luhrman movie I love, for the characters of Scott and Fran. And Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps by Doris Day is one of my favourite songs.

2. The Exploding Girl. I have ordered the dvd for rental. I loved the trailer. I'm also obsessed with the music. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ON3cmZ8pLvc

3. When A Man Loves A Woman. I love Meg Ryan in this. Andy Garcia plays probably the sexiest husband ever. He's so gentle with her, giving, he's too gentle sometimes but that's what happens when you're in love. The movie captures when a man loves a woman perfectly. It's drama comes from Meg's character's problem with alcohol and her life is falling apart despite her solid marriage and Tina Majorino is so beautifully sad in this movie as her daughter. The scene where Meg hits her, I really saw the emotions in both actress' faces.

And movies I'm not so obsessed with, Picture Perfect. Yup. I don't know I just really like Jay Mohr in this one.

And

Daybreakers. Ethan Hawke topless. Naked man chest. Respectable, career, investigative of nature (!) guy. MMMMMMMM! Out end of May. Since I no longer have a thing for pretty guys, I don't mind wanting to fuck him in the movie, it's more fun than longing. (I think I've gone and grown up).